As the daughter of a narcissistic mother you face countless assaults to your identity, integrity, and individuality. One of the most pernicious forms of assault plays out on the battlefield of your body.
Before we peer into the black hole that is your mother and her relationship to your body, let’s review a few narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) basics. People with NPD violate boundaries, avoid self-reflection and accountability, and don’t care if they hurt those around them. They think hierarchically, objectify others, value superficial markers of status, and compulsively project their own shame onto those close to them to manage their unstable self-esteem.
Your Narcissistic Mother Hates Your Body
Your narcissistic mother really does hate your body, and here’s why: The simple answer is that she hates her own body and yours by extension. In her myopic view, as her daughter you simultaneously represent her and pose a threat to her, and your body is a kaleidoscope of her distorted projections. You exist as an extension of herself and an object in relation to her, not as a subject with your own valid and complex identity, traits, feelings, needs, preferences, and boundaries. Whether you function as a source of pride, embarrassment, and/or competition, your body is not your own but rather hers to control, judge, display, reject, or otherwise exploit, neglect, and abuse.
Remember also that your narcissistic mother will tell you, others, and herself that she wants the best for you. This is because she can’t bear to be seen or to see herself as anything less than a devoted and loving mother, and she expects you to mirror that back for her regardless of how true it feels to you. If she attempts to control your eating habits, hairstyle, or clothing choices, she will always tell you explicitly or implicitly that it is for your own good, even if it involves violations such as the following:
- Sizing you up visually or verbally
- Comparing your appearance to that of herself, siblings, or others
- Calling you names
- Fat-shaming you
- Shaming you about your skin or hair color
- Overfeeding or underfeeding you
- Dictating your diet
- Cutting or styling your hair unattractively or age-inappropriately
- Discussing your looks or weight with others
- Commenting on your eating habits
- Blaming you for your health problems
- Pushing you to get plastic surgery
- Pushing you to straighten or dye your hair
- Giving you clothes too big, too small, or otherwise inappropriate
- Neglecting to buy you clothes
- Neglecting your personal hygiene needs
- Shaming you for your personal hygiene
- Objectifying you as a sexual object for boys/men
- Shaming your sexuality
- Shaming your femininity
- Criticizing your personal style
- Fear-mongering about your attractiveness to boys/men
The Role of Misogyny and Societal Narcissism
The projected self-hatred of narcissistic mothers onto their daughters is a human tragedy often perpetuated across generations. It is easy to pathologize the narcissistic mother and lay the blame at her feet, but her shame and rage are rooted in larger social problems. Institutionalized gender inequity, misogyny, and distorted identity politics that objectify girls and women as symbols of male privilege and pleasure while stripping them of self-esteem, personal agency, and educational and economic opportunity drive generational narcissism.
The Path to Healing
To heal ourselves and our daughters (and sons), we must reimagine our core values as members of the human tribe. This includes teaching our daughters and our sons to respect and honor their own authenticity, respond empathetically to themselves and those around them, and think critically about prevailing norms.
We can’t change our narcissistic mothers, but we can work on building self-love and respect in our own lives and relationships and guiding our children to carry that strength forward for themselves and those they touch.
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Julie L. Hall is the author of The Narcissist in Your Life: Recognizing the Patterns and Learning to Break Free from Hachette Books.
Need support? Julie is a narcissistic abuse recovery coach for clients around the world.
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Very close to my life. Going through the 22 points are true to my like..Not offended to say that I hate her.
She did ALL that! I grew up feeling like I was 'the competition' Took me years to get over that!
One question I would really like to have answered is why narcissistic mothers, especially malignant ones, all do and say the very same kind of things, they are almost like clones. Whenever I read about someone else's experience with their NM, I want to say: that's exactly what my mom did! or said! Sometimes the verbal abuse is almost word for word the same. Every person on earth is unique, except for narcissists??? Why do NMs all come from the same cookie cutter? Can anyone explain it?
You forgot destroying any attractive clothing you had.
My mother continually tells me, the daughter she has looked at for 50 years, that my eyes are blue. My eyes are not blue. They are a greenish hazel. Not a speck of blue in them. But she wanted a blue-eyed daughter, so my eyes are blue.
Oh my goodness... I understand this type of freakish alternative reality or whatever it is.
Great insights here! Despite being relatively well off, my mother dressed me in ugly second hand clothing as a child in the 1970s. I was never allowed to wear jeans or denim either.
This describes both my parents.
My mom did not buy a bra for me. I went through 6th grade with B cup boobs and sixth grade boys grabbing at me and perverted old men leering at me. She finally bought me some bras in 7th grade after an incident with me, a white Tshirt, a sudden downpour, and two forty something men at a shopping mall.
My mother was severely split. On one hand she'd buy me clothes and dress me to impress - but it was so she could feed off the attention it brought. If people admired me, she got a hit. But then after that had worn off, she'd go into hatred & attack. If anyone came into the picture, jealousy would reign & she'd go to work destroying it or sabotaging the relationship. No one is ever good enough. Then would come the blame that there must be something wrong with me. Cycle back around to "fixing" & "rescuing" and dressing me up. The woman is sick sick sick.